The Medicine asks for Honesty and Clarity

We’re officially deep in the jungle in Peru, just kicking off our four-week Ayahuasca retreat.

Before the chaos of ceremony begins, we sat down together to write out our intentions. We really tried not to do this from a place of wanting to chase some wild, cosmic, mind-blowing experience to brag about later. Instead, we wanted to be completely honest about what we’re ready to look at, what old patterns we’re still lugging around, and how we actually want to show up in our real lives.

This work forces you to be aggressively real with yourself.

Over the last few years, our path has centered around breathwork, nervous system regulation, and our training with Owaken Breathwork and the Intuitive Impact mentorship. Through all of that, we’ve learned a massive lesson: healing isn’t just about having a giant emotional release and crying on the floor. It is about capacity. It’s about building the muscle to stay present and keep your heart open when life gets incredibly uncomfortable or annoying.

In the past, both of us were professional escape artists. When life got overwhelming, we would look outside of ourselves for a quick fix or a distraction. This time feels different. We aren't coming to the jungle to escape our lives; we are coming here to meet them head-on.

We don’t think this work actually starts when you drink the medicine. It starts weeks before in how you prepare your body, how you slow down, and how willing you are to look in the mirror. One of the biggest things we’ve realised is that healing doesn't happen because a magical shaman fixes you. It happens when your own nervous system finally feels safe enough to drop its guard. We want to deepen that within ourselves on this trip, not so we can preach a bunch of fancy theories, but so we can lead from real, lived experience.

And so, here we are at the beginning again, listening closely.